Today I turn 24.
Please permit me to change pace a bit for a post and do some self reflection.
It seems surprise people when they learn I’m only 24. There are two ways to take this. Either that I look old or that I seem seem old for my age. Is this caused by sorrow, weight or wisdom? I don’t know. Probably a mixture.
Looking forward to my future I wonder if this will continue or if I will linger at an age.
I know now less than I thought I knew at 14. For instance, I thought I knew apologetics until yesterday when I preached on the UT campus. Most of the audience was hardened atheists with pre-prepared questions.
While on campus I saw an apologetisist presenting to probably 200 students who sat raptured by the eloquence of his words. He took anyone’s objection and gave a reasoned and winsome answer. He inspired me to know more than I do and helped me realize I know less than I think.
My cousin Tim asked me one Christmas if I had “destination fever.” Am I so focused on the goal that I forget to enjoy the journey?
A strong goal focus may help my leadership ability but it can also make me a miserable person to be around, especially when I am in a focused state.
My clients have taught me that the best authors enjoy brainstorming, outlining, drafting, writing, editing and promotion. Every stage of the writing process has its own joy.
The authors who just want to “be published” are miserable and often never get published.
I want to be someone who enjoys each stage of life’s journey. I am optimistic about the future but I want to also be content with where I am now.
As a self employed single man I have a great degree of freedom. This is a season to embrace! Not a season to squander on worry or speculation.
Some of you have asked me why I don’t blog much anymore. I actually blog more than ever just not as much this site.
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Repenting from Apathy
Last Sunday we had a meeting at eHarmony where we repented of apathy. I realized that I had been apathetic about finishing my book. Other folks were repenting from political apathy. Kristine, my editor, and I have committed to finish editing Digital Cancer by the end of the year.
Please pray for us as we do this because it is a lot of discouraging work.
I am thankful for:
- My family. The older I get the more I come to understand what a precious gift each family member is.
- A father who speaks identity.
- A mother who loves unconditionally.
- A sister who can dance, laugh and sing.
- A brother with worlds in his head that can only been seen through visualizing his words.
- A brother with a heart for people.
- A brother with a heart for the Kingdom.
- A job that allows me to make enough to live on.
- A community of believers who have a passion for Jesus. I get to storm the gates of hell every Monday with prayer ninjas.
- My roomates: all three of them. They are each so different and so awesome. We have funny one liners every day. Any house named eHarmony has got to be a lot of fun 🙂